LIFE IN A HEATHER SUIT … FROM THE (FEBRUARY) FACEBOOK DIARY OF HEATHER CORNELL

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February 1, 2014 ….
And the tech gods heard my prayer, and granted my request. Ecstatic does not cover it. — feeling Like March feels forever away.

February 4, 2014 ….
Heart shaped cookie dough donuts?? Omgggg …..#MuffinMangeniusness — feeling hungry.

February 5, 2014 ….
Can someone please post about all this snow? I don’t think anyone knows about it yet. Is it obvious I didn’t get to the liquor store? — feeling stuck inside without happy juice.

February 5, 2014 ….
-Gym
-Grab food, beer, and other liquor ( defeating the purpose if the gym)
-Feel so guilty about undoing my gym time that I consume ALL the items listed.
– Drunken EVERYTHING after that point. Hmmm works for me. — feeling Like snow makes me want to drink and cook stuff.

February 5, 2014 ….

Bed. … The next few days should be full of inanity, lots to do tomorrow… night yall.
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February 7, 2014 ….

She’s so crazy ha ha ha love her — feeling Like there are no bad days when your daughter is this awesome

February 8, 2014 ….

Procrastinating packing I am not impressed With moving my crap AGAIN when I Said I wanted to live here till I buy my Own house I guess what I meant was”I HATE MOVING Stuff Specially MY stuff.HEY LANDLORD JK So by all means please take that as ( sell the house in a year -force tenants out) ….- NOW to figure out where I want need/am going to move to …… GAH — feeling Like UHAUL and I should have (It’s Complicated) as our relationship statuses ooomph.

February 9, 2014 ….

I think Lauryn Estrella and I should go to BASS WAVE as She-Ra & Catra just cuz…. pros vs. Cons
CON: HeMan reminds me of a low budget Arnold Schwarzenegger cartoon, and gladiator sandals on men — JUST WRONG
PRO: But he totally had a tiger.
PRO: Catra had her own badass feline chauffer.
PRO: Castle of Gray Skull.. nuff said #randomcoffeethought — feeling Like I want to be a “superhero” for a few hours.

February 9, 2014 ….

The moment you realize that you’re realizing a moment. And then laughing as you realize your epiphany is only about the fact that if I’m typing an emoticon, I simultaneously unknowingly mimic the lil yellow head… BUT… On my actual face……. Hmmmm I dislike this discovery that is all! — feeling my fave shape shift to match the one at the start of this sentence.

February 10, 2014 ….

One of my fave tech-sexy DJ/producers is coming just in time for mine and Angel’s Bdays…. This guy is serious, and I’m more than excited.

February 11, 2014 ….

I’m really starting to despise these late night rendezvous with bakery items. Grrr, don’t mind gaining weight I just wish I would think ahead and bake earlier because baking after 10 pm once the pm mads kick in is frickin tricky shit. JS. — feeling pre-apologetic to the fire Department for what may or nay not transpire in my kitchen. @_@.

February 12, 2014 …

Smiles put on your face by the most unexpected people….Good stuff…. Sweet dreams yall xo — feeling Grateful and Sleepy, GOODnight..

February 14, 2014 ….
Blah Blah blah single, Blah Blah oooh presents, screw love, I’m in love, I hate love, Valentines day blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and stuff. STAAAAAHHHHHP IT, HAS EVERYONE GONE INSANE? THE IMPORTANT THING HERE IS THIS: tomorrow all chocolate is 50% off…Get with it people #priorities #hypedupdayforsuckers #realloveslikethisallyear #IsitMindControltimeyet

February 15, 2014 ….

To all my good friends that TODAY has been so hard on, for so many reasons…. Please Please do me the favor of knowing theses things.
A) YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH, YOU DO, yes DO DESERVE all your hearts desires, just make sure what you desire is worth all your attention, love, and heart.
B) Stop lowering your standards, and let him rise to meet yours.
C) The one that;s meant to love you only adds to your life, never deliberately or repeatedly makes conscious decisions to take from your life, put you down, hurt you, or cause you to feel less than you are.
MY TRUE FEW, are BEAUTIFUL, STRONG, SMART, AMAZING woman,STOP SETTLING My friends deserve the dreams they carry in their heart — and the return of the love, compassion, and so much more they put out. KNOW THESE THINGS AS TRUE, Because they are. I love you, “you don’t have to chase someone who wants to stay. – TS” <3xo

February 15, 2014 ….

2 thoughts
1)We need a back up after-hours– we can call it “The Crisis Center”, lord knows it feels like a damn crisis when .: says stay home lol.
2) We need a liquor delivery service, that should also keep several traveling chefs and masseuses on staff.
k that is all

— Heather Cornell / for Here and Sphere

PROGRESS, ACTUALLY : THE MICHAEL DUNN TRIAL

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At least, unlike in the Zimmerman case, the shooter in the case of State of Florida v. Michael Dunn didn’t get acquitted. On all but one count of the indictment, the trial jury found him guilty. As the New York times reported, “guilty of three counts of second-degree attempted murder for getting out of his car and firing several times at the Dodge Durango sport utility vehicle in which Jordan Davis, 17, was killed. Three other teenagers, the subjects of the attempted murder charges, were in the car but were not struck. Mr. Dunn continued to fire at the vehicle even as it pulled away. On the attempted murder convictions, he could be sentenced to 60 years in prison.”

Naturally, Dunn claimed self-defense. It’s what you do in Florida after you’ve killed somebody. In Florida all you have to do is show that you were in fear of your life — a judgment entirely subjective, unprovable — and bang ! No problemo, you are free to kill again.

Admittedly I have overstated. Your belief that you are afraid for your life must be reasonable in the circumstances. That’s not much to go on, but once there’s a law giving armed people the right to fight back, not under a duty to retreat — which was for hundreds of years the good sense of our common law — it’s some comfort to know that a shooter has to pass at least the “reasonable belief” test.

Dunn failed even this.

He pulls up next to the car with the teens in it, starts an argument with them — perfect strangers to him; who would do that ? — about the loudness of their music; then, when one of the teens objects to being “told what to do,” he takes a loaded gun out of his car’s glove compartment and shoots. He says he saw a weapon. Oh really ? At night, through his driver’s side window and the other car window ? No weapon was found by the police. Not very surprising.

The trial was “racially charged.” How could it NOT be ? Dunn is white, the kids in the car Black. Many a middle aged white man, alone, finding a car full of black teens next to him, is afraid; but his usual response is to say nothing — as people on a late night subway train often do when Black teens get aboard. But Dunn had a loaded gun in his car. He was not afraid. He was ready for battle, and when he was talked back to, battle he gave.

That was why he had a loaded gun in his car. “Fuck with me and it’ll be the last fuck you’ll ever do.’ that — or something like it — was surely his mindset. He then ordered a pizza , went back to his home and poured a drink ? Of course he did.

That’s pretty harsh of me to write, but can you think of anything less harsh to say about a man who closes an argument that he had no need to start by shooting the person who argues back at him ?

Comparisons to the Zimmerman case have been put and will continue to be put. The two cases do not compare, except for the mindset. In Zimmerman, the person he targeted, Trayvon Martin, actually fought back, physically, and seems to have beaten Zimmerman up — at which point Zimmerman probably WAS in reasonable fear of his life. That he had no business initiating the chain of events that led to his being beaten up, the jury was correct to find, did not deny to him a self-defense argument that would have applied even in a “duty to retreat” jurisdiction. In a “duty to retreat” jurisdiction, a person may, if no retreat is possible — as it wasn’t for Zimmerman, on the ground being beaten — use reasonable force to defend himself. My own position in Zimmerman is that, having initiated the chain of events that led to the shooting, he cannot escape culpability by claiming self-defense when the chain of events turned against him. But the Florida jury’s verdict was not outrageous.

This Dunn case is nothing like Zimmerman. Dunn initiated the chain of events and at all points was the aggressor; he was never in any danger at all — certainly not in any danger when he shot ten times at the car driving away. He was angry, so angry that he “lost it,” as one infamous Massachusetts murderer said as to why he shot a woman at a Route 24 rest stop at 2 AM some years ago.

The Florida jury correctly found Dunn guilty on all counts except first degree murder.
The jury seems to have had doubts what occurred while the Dunn car and that of the teens was parked. that a shot was then fired was proved, but first degree murder requires a plan, formed prior to the event, to kill someone. Clearly in the Dunn case there was no such. what i do not understand is why he wasn’t found guilty of manslaughter. if you shoot a gun at someone, and that person dies, the criminal nature of the act of shooting requires , in Massachusetts, at least a manslaughter verdict.

All that being said, I do see progress in the Dunn case verdict. a Florida jury has found that no self-defense argument will lie, even under a right-to-fire law, unless the shooter’s belief that he is in danger is warranted; and that it is not and will not, henceforth, be reasonable for a white man to be in fear merely because he finds himself parking next to a car with black teenagers in it. Or, that he can be in fear, but he must keep that fear to himself and not act it out.

Can there be any doubt that many Caucasian people feel such a fear in the presence of black teenagers ? The President himself, in a speech not too long ago, recalled times in his life when he could hear car doors locking when he walked up the street. this entirely racial fear is a huge reason why the Michael Dunns of America buy guns, load them, keep loaded guns on or near their person. This racial fear is why gun and ammo manufacturers make huge profits; it’s why there are a reported 310,000,000 guns in private hands (as opposed to 4,000,000 in the military). This racial fear is why the gun and ammo makers pay the NRA to bully legislators in every state they target.

Racial fear stoking the gun industry sits at the core of today’s right wing. Not every right wing person is a racist, but racial fear is the message, the anti-social, armed vigilante mindset that gives right wing venom its venomous edge. It’s what those who talk loudest about “the 2nd amendment” really mean. Thus I find it progress in a Florida jury putting at least some limit to how much armed racial venom they will tolerate.

Sentencing now awaits. Dunn faces a substantial prison term : Image

—- Mike Freedberg / Here and Sphere